Before I get into blogging the present, I wanted to give you a little of the past. This is a long one, I promise they all won’t be like this.
I am a 25-year-old woman who has always struggled with her weight since I was a young girl. You would think I would be one of the healthiest girls around town considering my dad has been a bodybuilder my entire life. I know what I’m supposed to eat and how much I should exercise, but for some reason it still seems to be a struggle. I started taking Adderall, a medication for ADD, a few years ago that seemed to help me maintain my weight but I’ve realized I can’t always rely on that. I have tried every diet, diet pill, and exercise plan known to man and nothing seems to work. The only time in my life I feel I have been at a healthy weight was during High school. I didn’t follow a special diet, but I did go to dancing about 4 or 5 days a week and hit up the gym occasionally. Back then I was carefree, stress free, and spontaneous. Somehow I need to figure out how to get back to that person, without changing the person I have become today.
Last year I was diagnosed with a syndrome called PCOS. In a nutshell, when I ovulate instead of my ovaries releasing an egg it forms a cyst on my ovary. After getting married in November 2009, my husband and I began trying to get pregnant. Six months later consisting of ovulation tests, 30 lbs of weight gain, losing hair, and hot flashes I decided it was time to go to the OB/GYN. My OB/GYN then referred me to an Endocrinologist who ran A LOT of tests and came to the conclusion of PCOS.
As soon as I found out, I went home and did some research it because I had no idea what he was talking about. Some of the symptoms included hirsutism (increased hair growth on face, chest, stomach, thumbs, & toes), acne, weight gain, hair thinning, pelvic pain, irregular period, and fatigue. **Breaking News: I now have an excuse for being as hairy as a gorilla.** I always thought it was because I am part Italian, LOL! I thought everyone experienced the pelvic pain, I thought it’s what normal cramps feel like, not so much! And I always use to brag about how my period only lasted for three days, maybe Karma is coming back to get me ;). With PCOS, weight gain is easy and weight loss is extremely hard.. the story of my life. So technically I have an excuse for the weight, but I don’t want it…I’m tired of excuses.
My Endocrinologist offered some options on how to control PCOS. Diet and Exercise (blah). Birth Control (can’t take if I want to get pregnant). Metformin (a diabetic drug), which I chose. I have been taking it for about 6 months and to be honest I haven’t really noticed a difference. Metformin affects the way insulin controls blood glucose (sugar), lowers testosterone production, and stabilizes hormone levels. It slows the growth of abnormal hair and, after a few months of use, may help ovulation to return. Recent research has shown metformin to have other positive effects, such as decreased body mass and improved cholesterol levels.
I’ve realized I have a problem handling stress and have more anxiety than most people. As a result of stress my body exhibits physical signs of sicknesses/illnesses. My first semester of nursing school I got the Shingles. What 25 yr old do you know gets the damn shingles? I basically live sick, just ask my friends. They probably think I lie to them when I cancel our plans because I’m sick all the time. Along with being stressed, I am tired all the time. I am only 25, not 75, hell my grandparents are more active than me. I figured there has to be a reason why I am sick and tired all the time, but my doctor’s never seemed to have an answer. After trying many different avenues, I decided to try a new one by going see a therapist. I have only seen her twice and she explained how not handling stress and anxiety properly can result in fatigue, etc. More to come with this topic.
Sorry again for my first blog being so long, but I wanted to lay the foundation of what I will be talking about in my future blogs! I plan to discuss my attempts to triumph over weight, stress, infertility, just saying No, and life in general. I hope you enjoyed what I have done so far and not bored to death! Any feedback ( good & bad) is welcome!